i've been trying 2 escape reality so much lately that i find myself so disconnected from life i dont fully absorb shit for all its worth cuz i'm never really here. i'm either imagining i'm here or there or trying to picture myself in my ideal life, in some imaginary interview with some1, or adding on the minor details to one of the scenarios i've created in my head. and i realized... thats all i do! so much so that i literally dont have time to think about reality anymore and it just makes u numb. and so finally the other day maybe a week or so back, i was just thinking to myself about different random things and idk what caused it but it was like a light switch all of a sudden i was plugged back in2 life, and it was like "whoa.." it was a physical change that i could feel 2 my core, and i didnt even remember the feeling till it came back after god knows how long. suddenly everything felt more significant, and...i guess "real" would be the word.
anyway no real clear cut conclusion here just that i gotta stop tryin 2 escape all the time, cuz if u spend all ur time escaping u dont have ur feet firmly planted in any foundation ur just running. after a while ur just escaping from an all ready in progress escape, which just leaves u, kind of in limbo. which sux. and who wants to perpetuate something that sux rite?? lol
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i guess it all depends on how youre escaping. but IMO enough escaping in your mind to the ideal will put you there eventually. why have a solid foundation in a reality youre not comfortable in?
oohhh.... i like that. yea i couldnt stop if i wanted 2 anyway. lol
what's "IMO"? lol
in my opinion hehe
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